Ultraviolence

I was in love once
But it wasnt pretty
It was violent and abusive
Even though she never hit me

She slapped me with her words
Kicked me with her actions
She always poked me like an animal
To try and get a reaction

I always cried
I became depressed
I wanted to die
But she was oblivious to my distress

Some days she would kiss my bruises
And hold me until the aching ceased
Other days she would just ignore me
And made me feel like I was nothing

It wasn't love
I know that now
She wouldnt even need to say sorry
For me to fall back in her arms


**A/N:Inspired by Ultraviolence by Lana del Rey**