how i feelz

I must appear insecure in the eyes of my peers,
And I fear,
Death lies near,
Just after a few years,
Blunts and beers take the place of tears while I'm here,
Oh my dear,
I'm so annoyed I'm steering straight into a void,
Wanted a career but I'm just employed,
Told to go get it boy,
Destroying my own mind seeking what I will not find,
A victim of my own crimes,
Relied on lies
Oh why
Repeat these lines if you feel like this guy,
Hypnotized by by rhymes reminiscent of your hard time,
Realize the main enemy in your soul you never meet,
But victory is sweetest after defeat,
And misery loves company it's something to see,
Me and my sheets of poetry never yet released,
So I breathe deep and spread it, intentionally till I'm deceased,
Or know who I'm meant to be,
Not likely though,
I got a journey like Frodo's,
Where I go not even I know though,
My flows expose a boatload,
And are fucked like the nose of a coke ho,
Who am I to cast a stone?
Dro and blow spent my money on both,
You already know I don't have trophies for those,
Nights i rolled so hard I couldn't go home,
my dome in the zone,
Surrounded by folks I know but I felt alone,
So I'm Going kamikaze on this flow,
If your impressed  just yet,
wait till i grown.