everything but....

When you're in pain, I feel my entire being, bleed.  When I'm the one who disappoints you, it burns like watching Hitler kiss a German child. You say, you "love me" and I ponder for a brief moment, "I am that important?"  When you sleep, I sleep.  I have survived The Gauntlet of life, 30 years and as I'm left standing, I have you to show for it.  I don't deserve you, darling son.  You carry me every day and I only carried you, nine months.  You brought me an entire world, just because I brought you into this one. How, with your first breath did you give me something worth living for and something worth dying for too? You raise my expectation of how men treat me, simply, because I'm raising you. I can't afford to make mistakes that hurt you, just because I'm not perfect or because I'm only human...

No, I am a Mother and to one blue eyed boy, I am everything but human.