Masochism

Throwing the suffocating blanket on yourself
Here you go again
Tying your arm with a belt
Strapping it down to the bed stand
Pulling up the long sleeve
rubbing the scars present
Snatching the burner
well, this is going to hurt like a motherfucker.
Slamming it down onto the already worn down skin
you wail
Slapping yourself
Baiting yourself calling it blackmail
rubbing the mark
sending shivers down your back
repeating words after words, trying not to snap
Turning the burner up high
without being fully aware
you shove it onto your arm
again.
once more.
Feeling the blood rise,
dropping onto the unforgiving carpet floor.
And you still want more.