Change

Even though agony is taking over,
I will
Smile at peace
Talk with no regret
Walk with approval
Seem to live with content
No one will see my pain

It is always hiding,
Yet there's often times
Where everything falls and unveils with every second gone by,
My arms weaken letting blood flow to end of my finger tips,
The rich red is the hue for this new canvas created ,
I look down to see the perfectly white mat,
I smile as more blood drips,

Why bother even try to clean the mess?
Have I lost sanity ?
Every thought has a different outcome
My outcome is different ,
Has no one around me tried this,
Has no one ever should,
It brings pain to release pain,

I'm one in a few whose mind is full of thoughts that will never be said,
Who creates a trap and calls it an escape.
Can it be that I'm wrong ?
Can I stand my ground?

No fault will change my mind,
Now this pain will help me to stand taller,
I will be seen and heard,
You will see the reason I keep standing up

It's the differences between us
The way live ,
The way I whispered every night to these four walls,
I am not willing to fail any longer

I am who I am ,
No great man will tell me my destiny
I don't believe in the unclear
I will build a destiny on my own
I will walk out to see the horizon
The on going of problems won't phase me

Can you see the great determination? ,
I will let the melody and rhythm of my passion lead me,
There will be no stop until it is accomplished
I will show you my success and soon you will be proud

There is no levels between you and me
I have opportunities you might not have
Conquered and taken,
But I will never be granted