does anyone hear me?

 
Is anyone out there
can you hear my tears fall.
im i worth the effort.
what is the reason,
im facing to make this clear to even myself
i hate my self more than imagined and he can tell.
"how do u expect to let someone love you? if you cant love yourself first?"
the thing is i cant make myself love me, i forgot how?
i need guidance a teacher, i want you to show me?
i cried for you to stay , i cried for you to care...
i want to love again! to fell okay again, start over
maybe from scratch. Is there Anyone out there?
Are you out there?
why cant the demons just pass us beside grabbing us?
it took us both to make this.
why do i have to be the evil demon?
why im i alone?
can you help me?