You gave to me and you justly take

Lord, I know you did what needed to be done,
You are the master,
You watch over me,
But when you act you do so and you do so decisively.

Initially I thanked you for what you gave me,
I had prayed for this for years,
And by your grace you delivered her,
The girl of my dreams.

I did love her Lord,
But now I see that was not the right way,
Because with my love for her,
I allowed my love for you to diminish.

I should have kept my love for you,
But some of my love for her replaced that,
That is not how you wanted it,
And I pay a just price for turning my back on you and focussing on her.

Two things I pray further:
Please stay with her,
She was a believer once,
And possibly due to me isn’t anymore,
I pray you bring her back to you,
Whoever you use to do that.

Also, please help me move on,
You have already started,
And Lord when you allow me to embark on the journey again,
Please keep me true to you,
And for me to always remember who the provider is.