Angelic Devil

he kisses me and I can just taste his sins screaming in my mouth begging to be let out. he holds my face and when he looks at me I see the painful memories through his big brown eyes. I see a shattered soul destroyed and ripped apart piece by piece by those he cares about most and I can't let myself be another one of those people to him. so I kiss those sins away and put pleasant memories within him. take over his mind and make him happy. he smiles bright like a supernova filling not only himself with joy but also me. I hold his hand with mine and with the other slowly trace the outline of his lips with my fingertips while he flashes shiny pearls in my direction. I give him what he wants and he loves it. then I play him a little song because without music he's not just broken, he's lost. now he's overflowing with happiness and asks if I'm a dementor because I took his breath away so he gasps for air while we kiss and I unconsciously pierce his core with darkness from my heart and when we stop and I look into his eyes I see nothing. not a single feeling not a single thought. all masked by a single darkness that saddened me. but what it did for him it didn't do for me and it had to go somewhere where it could take everything away from someone and it chose him. it chose him when I meant to make him happy and I accidentally extracted every part of him that felt. I ruined him. now I stand here with someone who hates me and doesn't even know it. so I walk away and hope that one day he returns for me and I can provide the happiness I once planned to give. but that's only if the darkness doesn't restore itself within me.