Words Of A Broken Boy

Everyday i wake up with a heavy heart,internally bleeding
My soul is intricate,i suffer a terrible anguish for no reason.
I can feel a hole in my heart
My soul is torn apart.
A false masquerade is invisible for the human eye
So all i do is pretend to be fine.
Im like lungs of an addict starving for fumes,im dissatisfied
My soliloquys speak to the demons of suicide.
Im fooled by my brain,commiting flaws in my own imagination
Meditation got me afflicted by self-doubts,drowning in hesitation.
Im pensive,peeved,pathetic,penetrating pens while a piercing pain piles to the pinnacle
In my world happiness is just a word,tragedy is a radicle.
I thought biting my tongue will cool me down but then silence exacerbates
The more i keep it inside the more it replicates.
Life is a floozy,prima-donna the queen of groupies
Sometimes i wish life had a happy ending like movies . .