Broken Vows

Walking in from my everyday mundane
Laundry, dishes, what’s for dinner, check the mail
I go about the business that keeps everything the same
Nothing but smiles, all think I’m alright, inside I’m in Hell

Young faces that couldn’t understand, depend on me to be strong
I can’t win, but I can’t fail, all the while feeling like I will drown.
Deep inside I know this picture perfect is flawed and wrong
Trying to keep it together thou, so I don’t let them down.

Time, homework, dinner, bed; all are tucked in tight
Alone with my thoughts I quietly go to our room
I’ve made it thru another day, now… for the night
Faded memories of joy, I was your blushing bride and you my handsome groom

Fun in the sun, new home, jobs, babies on the way
Holidays, vacations, car, bills, living the American dream
Stress, strain, alcohol, slowly in time you turned away
But all is fine, outside looking in, to everone else, it would seem.

Late nights, red eyes, responsibilities of this life you couldn’t take
Little by little the smile turned to hate upon your face
Over time, every vow, you’ve selfishly chose to break
Longing for the man I married, in my dreams.. I chase

I close my eyes, you’ll not come to bed, probably sleep in your chair
Downstairs, I hear you; another late night, stumbling in.
In the dark I’ll cry this out; finally letting go.   No one said life was fair.
I must rest my heart and mind, on the morrow; with resolve I will begin again.