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why i dont tell people anything that i am feeling
Today is the day I finly let it all out .
I am not fine I lied .
I am suffring inside but I dont tell anyone anymore and just fake a smile becuse i know no one even cares .
The people who say they love you are nothing but liers.
No matter how meany times I speak my mind or say how your words hurt you dont even care .
I am done hideing from everyone I dont care anymore like I said befor you all win. I know I am nothing but a pupet on strings for you to control and use as you want .
You slap me and abuse me then tell me right after you love me.
What the hell dose that mean ?
Every day I fight. I fight just to be hurd I cry right infront of you but you ignore every word and act like I never said anything and then go back and do the same shit over agan .
No matter how loued I scream no one can hear me .
I realy want to give up and just die already .
I realy wish I could take a knife and just end my life becuse I cant do this anymore .
I cant talk to people at all about my feelings becuse I know they would not care anyway .
I look at the sky wishing and hopeing I could fly . I am so tired of everything I am so tired of peoples lies and games .
I dont trust anyone and I keep everything locked in side because when I tell people what I am feeling and thinking they ignore it and tell me I am stupied and that I need to just keep my mouth shut. But your the fucking ones who asked !
I have no idea what love is becuse I have never experienced it.
I thought I did once but just like everything in my life it was a lie .
He never loved me or wanted me he just used me so he didnt feel lonely . my parents always hated me becuse to them I am the deamon child who should have never been born .
My past you ask .. is a dark place full of things that would make you vomit and run away and have night mares for weeks .
Everything about me is nothing but shattared and broken pieces.
I will never be fixed no matter how hard I try. Becuse when I think I finly got a piece together agan something comes along and shattres it all over so I stoped trying to put anything back together becuse I dont see the fucking point to it anymore.
I am so tired of this world and everything about it.
Why am I still alive even though I want to die ?......
I am not fine I lied .
I am suffring inside but I dont tell anyone anymore and just fake a smile becuse i know no one even cares .
The people who say they love you are nothing but liers.
No matter how meany times I speak my mind or say how your words hurt you dont even care .
I am done hideing from everyone I dont care anymore like I said befor you all win. I know I am nothing but a pupet on strings for you to control and use as you want .
You slap me and abuse me then tell me right after you love me.
What the hell dose that mean ?
Every day I fight. I fight just to be hurd I cry right infront of you but you ignore every word and act like I never said anything and then go back and do the same shit over agan .
No matter how loued I scream no one can hear me .
I realy want to give up and just die already .
I realy wish I could take a knife and just end my life becuse I cant do this anymore .
I cant talk to people at all about my feelings becuse I know they would not care anyway .
I look at the sky wishing and hopeing I could fly . I am so tired of everything I am so tired of peoples lies and games .
I dont trust anyone and I keep everything locked in side because when I tell people what I am feeling and thinking they ignore it and tell me I am stupied and that I need to just keep my mouth shut. But your the fucking ones who asked !
I have no idea what love is becuse I have never experienced it.
I thought I did once but just like everything in my life it was a lie .
He never loved me or wanted me he just used me so he didnt feel lonely . my parents always hated me becuse to them I am the deamon child who should have never been born .
My past you ask .. is a dark place full of things that would make you vomit and run away and have night mares for weeks .
Everything about me is nothing but shattared and broken pieces.
I will never be fixed no matter how hard I try. Becuse when I think I finly got a piece together agan something comes along and shattres it all over so I stoped trying to put anything back together becuse I dont see the fucking point to it anymore.
I am so tired of this world and everything about it.
Why am I still alive even though I want to die ?......
Published 5th Apr 2014
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5th Apr 2014 9:26am
I can feel this, it's wonderful that you've said what you want to say. Thank you for inspiring me, I guess I schould also speak my mind.
5th Apr 2014 9:30am
your welcome but rember that speaking your mind works but only if people are willing to hear you :)
5th Apr 2014 12:35pm
That's what many people mean when they say "i love you"...i want to use you, abuse you, exploit you, turn you into what i want and need you to be, you must be my slave etc etc etc...
We should all speak our minds, our true ones, no masks. Then we'd know who really loves us..;)
We should all speak our minds, our true ones, no masks. Then we'd know who really loves us..;)
5th Apr 2014 7:10pm
that is true your right AlienScum most do use the 3 letter words I love you to get what they want.
12th Apr 2014 3:17pm
I'm glad you're speaking up...
you should..it's better this way I think..despite whatever people might think about you..That way it serves as a warning sign..and keeps unnecessary trash outside..I do the same, although I never feel like cutting myself..I feel like butchering others..also..people or our society in general overrates love..and has given that word a very linear hollow value...there are different kinds of love..same goes for hate..ultimately they are biological phenomenon..and there is nothing wrong or right for them being biological phenomenon..
we are as stuck as any other person in this quagmire of desire..whatever that be..love, lust, money, happiness..The thing is we WANT to much but don't accept whats been given.
Also, I differ in opinion with the fact that speaking your mind works only when people listen..well you are listening irrespective of others aren't you? Let that be a source of strength..you set limits like.."I'll repeat this 4 times" in different situations & then if they don't listen..too bad for them..you move on.
Anyway, it takes courage to speak out so..good for you :)
you should..it's better this way I think..despite whatever people might think about you..That way it serves as a warning sign..and keeps unnecessary trash outside..I do the same, although I never feel like cutting myself..I feel like butchering others..also..people or our society in general overrates love..and has given that word a very linear hollow value...there are different kinds of love..same goes for hate..ultimately they are biological phenomenon..and there is nothing wrong or right for them being biological phenomenon..
we are as stuck as any other person in this quagmire of desire..whatever that be..love, lust, money, happiness..The thing is we WANT to much but don't accept whats been given.
Also, I differ in opinion with the fact that speaking your mind works only when people listen..well you are listening irrespective of others aren't you? Let that be a source of strength..you set limits like.."I'll repeat this 4 times" in different situations & then if they don't listen..too bad for them..you move on.
Anyway, it takes courage to speak out so..good for you :)
12th Apr 2014 9:39pm
