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Now or Never

� �Well it's even worse than before,
Too scared to even walk out my door.
I won't even move, I'm stuck in this limbo.
The life I had is now only a symbol.
� �The phone is ringing, but I don't answer.
The fear spreads in me like cancer.
Please don't care, I don't want to hurt you,
Seems that's all I know how to do.
� Pick up too dial but I forgot the number.
Everyone hates me now, and it's no wonder.
Easier to fail, so I don't even try.
Curled up in my head waiting to die.
� �I forgot what it's like to be truly free,
I've lost the essence that makes me me.
I'm nothing but a shell of my former self,
Locked in a life that's become my hell.
� �You remind me of brighter days,
Back when I was trying to change my ways.
It hurts to think about sitting in the sun,
Floating on the river having so much fun.
� �It hurts to smile, something I don't deserve.
And spending time with you definitely touched a nerve.
Reminding me that life can be better,
And that most likely it's now or never.