Dreaming Of My Passed On Dad

Introspective intriquing write.

I will pm you with more

xx

thank you Poet your insight is much appreciated.. I look forward to hearing from you.. with love and respect Brenda

Bolt I am sorry for your loss and also for the sleeping disorder.. I'm glad relaxation therapy is working for you.. thank you kindly for your insight :) with love and respect Crim

....dreams do have unexplained meaning. I wonder if the bet was a sign to go against the odds, toss caution to the wind and take a chance on family...hmmm...
Whatever the case, you wrote your thoughts and feelings out beautifully, Crim. Xo

thank you lovely Rain for your take on my dream and the lovely comment :) with love and respect Crim

I echo Rain, take that chance. Whatever happens know that you're the one making the effort, you're a strong woman, I believe everything will work out for you. I'm sorry for your loss,God bless you! :)

thank you beautiful Tommie for your kindness it's been a long time since I lost my dad but I still miss him and feel his presence.. If I can get the courage I will definitely reach out to them :) with love and respect Crim

First, something to make you smile. Your dad was urging you to visit me in Vegas, have me show you around.  :)

On a serious note, I will share this. Having lost my dad in 2001, nearly four years passed before I decided to gamble and again visit my family. (many details skipped here as to why we became estranged)
I caught a flight back home, arrived on their doorsteps to be greeted with an enormous outpouring of love and compassion. We have remained very close.
It is highly probable, your dad wants you to risk it all on your family.
In my humble opinion, if experience is an indicator, you should place that bet. I wager the odds are heavily in your favor.
Warmest regards,
VP

thank you for the smile VP that sounds great :) you're probably right in your advise they have reached out to me but I have been unresponsive and wary.. maybe the stakes aren't too high to take at least a gamble on them.. with love and respect Crim

Crims

heartfelt, real emotionful, I expect your screen was being rained on while you typed. Good stuff, much admiration for you here

honestly, though the foundation is sound I think there are a couple of ways, line break changes and word changes that might help it along a little, all just my opinion of course

It's been years  
since I've shed a single tear  
but I cried last night  
while dreaming of my lost family    
 
I was estranged from them long ago  
a cold broken addict
so naturally they cast me aside  
it hurt so much inside, and even though
I'm clean now, my pride has kept me
from reaching out to them  
 
seeing them in my dreamscape
tears fell down my face  
and I could hear their voices
Just like it were yesterday    

then I asked them
why they treated me that way  
and said all the things I longed to say  
but still don't have the guts
to utter  
 
then I saw my dad, long since passed away  
it was if he came down from heaven  
to dry my tears, and gift me a message  
 
strange thing was, we were at a casino  
he gave me money to gamble
and went on his way  
leaving me left wondering
what it all meant  
 
I think, there's a chance
he wanted me to bet on our family  
reach out to them and cast my pride aside  
because I know in my heart
that he wouldn't like  
that I've blocked them out
for all these years  
 
I've built up walls and barriers  
to keep out the pain of it all
but waking up  
with tears running down my face

tells me  
 
I'm not so strong to carry the weight
bearing down on me
for not speaking to them.

I'd love to explain all the changes to you, but I'm just too stoned for that, have a read see what you like don't like, then do what you feel is right

good stuff Miss, shine on  
 

Craic yes I was crying a bit as I wrote this.. I am deeply honored and touched that you took the time to add heart and soul to this poem.. I live in a somewhat detached state and it reflects in my writing though this is all the heart and soul I can expose at the moment I will cherish your version of what an open heart should and can be but will leave it stand because it's baby steps with me and it's where I'm at.. thank you so much Craic for your heart of gold and many thanks for your time and efforts concerning this vulnerable write of mine.. I will keep your version in my heart as a symbol of what I hope to be a great writer some day.. with love and so much respect Crim

Jaysus Crims, it's you that put your heart and soul into it, I simply changed a couple of words and line breaks, if you want to nominate someone for laureate, nominate yourself

stop your blubbering missus, and take a bow

Craic I love you.. such a way you have.. thank you for putting a big smile on my face :) i'll stop being so mushy for the moment.. with love Crim

The physical separation of family relationships may allow some memories to fade to the point of forgetting certain details. The things you may have liked to see and do.
The purpose of Time is to ease the pain of loss just a little more each day. Each individual must hang on to the memories that mean the most to themselves.
Your DAD reminds me of my MOM (91yrs old)They want to give us gifts they Hope will make us smile. Money will never replace True Love or give us back our greatest losses in Life, but there is a chance that it may make us smile.
When someone Smiles at us it warms our memories and our Hearts and reminds us all, that Hope is still alive.
Your Poem has made me smile with a tear of recognition. Thank You.

Sorry for your loss as well RT I'm glad I made you smile with the memory of your Mom that my poem about my Dad brought about :) with love and respect Crim

Sweet Lady Crim.....this is heart shaking. Sorry for the pain that you have been that. Can feel your beautiful heart and soul wide open to share such personal emotions with us. I think your interpretation of your dream is beautiful. I also think perhaps they was His way of encouraging you to have fun so he could watch you from above. His way of supporting you after all this time. Sending luv, hugs and prayers your way. Xo :)

lovely Flower thank you kind lady I love your interpretation of my dream :) with love and respect Crim

beautiful poem, Crim, it hits every one of us...

I'm pleased this write hit home.. thank you John with love and respect Crim :)

nice write Crim. I think he was saying it's up to you now, life is a big casino, you gotta know where to place your chips, or you'll lose it all.

thank you kindly.. I like your take on my dream :) much love Crim

What a great moment, Most would say it is just a dream.  You got to spend a moment, a define moment with someone you love, that moment at the time was all real as it gets.  Cherished moment indeed.

The Dream:  He is a symbol of unconditional love, which you desperately seek.  The money is to gamble on the search of that love.  His presence tells me he represents family and would like you to reconnect, help fill some of that lost love.  The money to gamble for love is his way of saying I support you and will love you no matter what you do.  I am here if you need me, you are not alone in this cut throat lifestyle.  Just remember to look up from time to time.

BTW: Heart pounding read, Honored to have let my eyes soak in the blood of your heart.  

Soul I love your interpretation of this dream it gives me something to think about.. you seem to always see things so clearly.. thank you for the heart warming comment and for being here :) with love and respect Crim

Crim, I have only one word for you, forgive.

great advise lovely lady thank you with love and respect Crim :)

It's a awesome piece!!

thank you kindly Corey :) with love and respect Crim

I think  you nailed what your dad was trying to say...
based on your memory of the family's disassociation
due to your addiction, likely was HIS way to apologize
n to implore you NOT to give up hope for the rest of them.
Sorry to hear about your pain filled past, but happy to know you've regained your life... deep n thought filled write :)

Poe thank you for getting this poem and your beautiful insight to it's meaning.. warming my heart :) with love and respect Crim :)

Dreams...help us cope...prepares and heals our minds and emotions. You needed this. Life is a gamble. He wants you to be happy. My parents are both gone too, this is so relatable. The dreams give us that interaction that we crave.. Love this poem.. peace to you*

thank you lovely Angel for the beautiful insight.. I am sorry for your loss as well.. thank you for the warm embrace of peace.. peace to you also.. with love and respect Crim :)

Crim, this is an absolute masterpiece. It left me longing to reconnect with my still-living dad and to see my, many-years-dead, loving mother's face again. The gambling symbolism is inspiring...life is all about risks and gambles if we are to truly " ...live deep and suck out all the marrow of life..."
Henry David Thoreau

thank you so much Sir I'm so moved that this dream of mine inspired you to do so.. I hope you see your beautiful mother's face in your dreams.. with love and respect Crim

What else can I say brenda...?
Remembering our love ones is the only way we can bring them back...
Love and respect (I'll keep you on my knees so can find peace)

thank you Cesar for reminding me of that with love and respect Brenda :)

I feel u on this i have lost my dad too. I kno ur pain feel your hurt. And this is such a kick ass piece i love it alot

I'm sorry for your loss as well.. thank you for such a great comment with love and respect Crim

I think you may have nailed the interpretation of the dream on the head Crim.

My father and my brother have both come to me in dreams, giving me answers and their protection, leaving me with peace of mind.

Wonderfully put dear. :)

thank you Magdalena it's so soothing that we get these visits with them.. thank you also for your insight on this dream meaning :) with love and respect Crim

dearest Ego me and my dad didn't see eye to eye in life...it's very strange but he is a consistent visitor of mine I write about him often...my mom passed on the same year but I almost never get visits from her...thank you for your understanding heart concerning this write...I don't know why I know I just do your brother is with you...here I am going out on a limb again but I feel led to... this is another write about my dad and the things I see and here I'm called crazy for them and maybe I am I don't know...

https://deepundergroundpoetry.com/poems/261118-dad/

I want you to have some peace now in knowing...you are still in a place of intense hurting and yes I've awaken with my pillow covered in tears...your brother is with you dearest poet...

love Brenda ❤

yes you're right they come to us while we are submerged in our art...I channel my dad when writing I find he is speaking to me and I'm writing down what he is saying...I'm relieved to know I'm not the only one that has experienced this...

thank you dear poet...

love Brenda ❤