Memories

Everything ive loved is lost, but out of everything lost, how come nothing has loved me

Its a tragic cycle that I'd love to get out of, it means everything, it mean the world, because when I think of love, I think of this girl

If you had stayed, we could have made it better, but you never gave it a chance, I might have lasted forever, and forever we'd be together

When I have time to think, I realize how bad I fucked up, everything has gone and now I feel so empty

Sometimes I like it when it is always sad, when everything is grim and depressing, it makes me feel somehow happier, like for some reason I enjoy this feeling

But the truth is, I love this feeling, because she was the girl, the one that lit up the world, and our memories i'll never forget, but that feeling i'll never get back

The way she smiled, the way she blushed when I was around, the taste of her lips on mine, and the feel of our bodies close

That time in your hallway, just me and you, how much you smiled, and how long we talked, I made you cry from a sad story, and when I saw your tears, I died

I've kept your letter all this time, reminds me of when you were mine, I've moved on, I really have, but if I had the chance, i'd do it all over again

It was a short time,  but the best time of my life, the snowball fight we had outside of your house, how we'd talk on the phone all night, and the first kiss we shared, it was my first ever

And the first time we met, you put bows in my hair, we thought it was funny so I didn't care, and when I asked you out, I was so awkward, but I could tell you thought it was cute

I still cherish these thoughts, even though I have moved on, but it will eventually get better, but never the same way

I'll miss seeing you in the morning before school, waving goodbye from your bus, but i'll always remember how good it felt, when it was us