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Of Love and Anxiety

We are friends,
You care about me and
I care about You.
When we are together I'm at ease.
We talk, share, explore, enjoy.
Perfection.

But why can't I sleep?
My mind races with images
of You talking, sharing, exploring, enjoying...
with someone else,
and no evidence to its truth.
Jealousy.

My thoughts run in circles.
She cares about me,
she doesn't really.
She loves me,
she loves me not.
Repetition.

The battle rages on throughout the night.
Sleep only comes when love is victorious.
If not, forget about it.
But a new day brings clarity,
and some rationality.
Peace.

And as I write this I think,
How can I defeat this fear of rejection?
I can't control the emotions of others.
So I will talk, share, explore, enjoy.
I'll regret it if I don't!
Trust.