Who is to blame

Everyone blames society.
"Society made me depressed."
"Society made me anorexic."
"society made me self harm."

I hear constant blames and cries of,
"Society made me hate myself"
And
"Society made a monster out of me".

Maybe this makes the ever growing
Number of people who claim to
Hate themselves feel like they have
Something to relate to.

Since society is enemy number one,
There is something they can blame.
It is an excuse for their thoughts
And a beast to fight and conquer.

I have no excuse for my thoughts,
Though I do have a beast to fight,
And to blame, and to hate.
It's me.

The world around me influences
Me in no way at all like the way my
Mind picks apart every last inch
Of who I am and what I do.

I have made a monster of me,
Lurking in the night when everyone
Else is asleep, plotting new tricks
To make me sink deeper and deeper.

I do envy those who battle society,
For they have a chance of winning.
The only way I can slay my beast,
Is by slaying myself.