Everything happens for a reason?

this pain it hurts so much..
something stolen because of pure lust...

I've closed myself off from the terror..
but in my head I will never forget the horror..

I'm scared to get close to anyone..
being so scarred is no fun..

I'm terrified of what you'll do...
because I'm alone and you've got two...

the bruises and beatings I healed from
but this.. I'm so scared I'm dumb...

I've never felt so alone..
this is the first time my fear has been shown..

why didn't you kill me after...
instead of leaving me bleeding you bastard..

they say things happen for a reason..
I guess questioning it is treason..

do I deserve what happened to me?
and will I ever be free..

someone answer these questions..
please..