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Thoughts consumed by the darkness
That's been filling in my heart
Isolated feelings,
While the room's filled with people
Though I never wanted us to part..
All the acts of kindness my whole life threw
What's with this karma
What did I not do..
Smile,be polite
don't ask questions
just try an live this life right
The harder I try
No matter how much effort
Seems the more I tend to cry
This hole in my heart hurts
Like its ripped raw right to its core
What's so wrong with me
wanting for it to burn no more?
Guidance I never had
I usually blame
But this life of mine
I chose every direction
Could be why I'm still spinning
Unable to find what's right
No matter what way I've tried..
Still so much correction
I have got to be stronger
Fighting this struggle
so i can provide better
Than the material things from my mother
Always wished for a simple life
Still searching for that light
Maybe it won't be till
I'm reaching threw the tunnel
When my life's finally run out?
You all have always meant more to me
The more I see
The lonely I find myself
Discovering the truth
Hurts like my heart's trapped in hell
Burning, torturing
Straight threw i feel it
Braking my soul