The Shackles

My present is the only remnant of a life lived so hatefully
My present is the only remnant of a life lived so safely
I’m doing my best to move on from this hopeless town
But today, I realized that the town isn’t what’s holding me back

My heart is getting heavier, I never knew my bones could weigh this much
My feet are filled with lead, When I wish my head was filled with the same
The thoughts are raging, The demons are pacing, I’m so worn out and beat down
I decided to try to stand, But I stood too quickly and my head is spinning

An answer must be found, To the question I’ve asked over a thousand times
“What lies on the other side of my walls, On the other side of this unabated fear”
I’ve tried time and time again, But never this strongly, Never this fearlessly
I knew I’d make it one day, I was so ready, But god help me, I’m so scared

My hands are trembling, Tears are pulling at my eyes, There’s a chill on my spine
I’d ask you to hold me but you’re so far away, Everyone is a thousand miles too far
A million hearts in reaching distance, But my arms are so tired from holding me up
I can no longer bear this burden, I can no longer push forward in search of a better day

Yesterday will forever tie me down, I am haunted by days that will never change
Replaying endlessly inside such a tired mind, When will my eyes shut for the last time
I fear tonight may be the best time to lay down, Inside my coffin for the thousandth time
I will bury myself too deep, I will stop breathing and the shackles will remove themselves