Part of My Problem

 (Oddly enough, to those of you who know my present situation by reading my poetry, I wrote this 3 days before I met him) :)
I love too easy
I fall too fast
and most of the time
  hardly one will last.
Then I get depressed
think I'm not worthy
to be blessed with a good man...
I think its just me.
I try to blame it on others
say "he got in my way"
but its the same thing over again
day after heart breaking day.
I set myself up for failure
I never seem to achieve
A place I call my dungeon
where I am sent to then grieve.
But I wake up every day
try to put a smile on my face..
I can't keep feeling this way
I feel like I've been up for days.
Maybe some day my heart will break
from lack of love.
Then I'll know not to worry about it any more
when push comes to shove.
I'll never have to fill my heart
or find someone to love me.
Never will I be sad again..
my mind will be set free.
My problem is I want to fall
in love with a great man...
Maybe I should just stop looking
and then it'll just happen.