jus one of those days, you know?

to fix this mess seems nearly impossible.
its like i cant ever find the right words to say, to you, to anybody
and when i jus blurt out what i want to say, its rude and i look like an idiot
so, ive become a listener and not a speaker
its embarrasing not to do both, but it keeps me going
i guess

maybe im jus confused..
although ive been told im jus "slow"
...
 my feelings get hurt easily, and i tend to get defensive instead of brushing it off my shoulders and laugh at it.
yet everyone says they see me as happy go lucky
i try to be at least
even tho it gets hard sometimes.
life you kno..


im beginning to work on understanding myself,
this is what ive came up with so far..