The battle of niche and changing lifestyles

A thousand times tried
failed a thousand more
no stranger to whats in store
for the next attempt inside

trying to make changes
to ways held steadfast
stuck deep within the past
on a scale it ranges

for my son I aim high
no longer do I wish to fall
before I walk, I must crawl
to teach him better than I

sure, mistakes were made
lessons harshly learned
important bridges burned
games, unfairly played

Too true, my thoughts combat me
non-self trusting
inner psyche rusting
how hard can it really be?

To make these changes will be tough
no longer will I fail
for my son I will prevail
I only hope it to be enough