Play write-up To my crush: A collaboration, when friendship turns to love.

I wear a school jacket.                      
I wear my favorite dress.                        
   
I always look for you, we are friends.                         
                        
I sit in the back seat.                    
I search the room.                       
   
I always look for you, we are friends.                      
                        
I like to play dolls.                         
I like to play Cowboy's n Indians.                       
   
We play together, we are friends.                     
                        
You tease me in school.                         
You trick me, on the playground.                     
I am pretty, pretty ugly, you reply.                         
   
Happenings, when being friends isn't enough,                        
we turn into friendly enemies.                          
                        
Friendly enemies, soo                         
I stick my leg out, ready to laugh at you.                        
You fall to the ground, when I push you down.                         
Your pretty knees, scrapped up, but                            
I'm not really sorry for what I did                          
that's what you get, for pulling my training strap.                       
   
We turn into friendly enemies, friendly enemies we are, but...                        
We are older now, teenagers.                          
   
I practice kisses for only you on my bi-ceps.                          
I comb my hair, slip in a barrette, cos...                          
Want to impress you.                          
                        
Want to impress you too, but                          
instead I fart on you.                       
We laugh, I think you are smart.                         
I try to control my eyes, but instead                          
they glaze over when I look at you, so. (sigh)                          
   
We are older now, teenagers.                      
                        
I break in my Daddies room.                          
I steal a dash of his cologne.                          
My manhood reacts when I simply "see" you.                     
                        
We are older now, teenagers.                          
I don't like my "mirror", it's broken.                         
I feel awkward, sore.                          
Hips and breast annoyances!                          
My womanhood, symbolic on the irregular.                        
                        
We are older now, teenagers.                          
My voice is deep, it cracks when I speak.                          
Skin oily, my arms drag the ground, but                          
when I am pushed around,                       
I always look for you.                
We are friends, and I trust you.                          
                        
We are older now, teenagers we are not.                      
Your voice is deep, your eyes lush.                          
I watch my friends, they have friend boys.                         
I always had one, but look for you.                        
Now you, is all I want!                   
                            
Teenagers, we are not, we are older now.                         
Got big dreams that don't involve you.                        
Want to go off to college, get me a car.                         
Hanging with my boys, forget you!                          
Forget you, forget you, forget you!                        
                        
Teenagers we are not, we are older now!                        
Got my first set of keys.                   
A daddie's girl, he helped me out.                        
Been drivin' awhile, my Daddy taught me how!                 
He loves me, my new, new school is cool.                
It's my dream come true.                          
Hangin' with my girls,                   
my thoughts, bring me back to you.                      
                            
We are older now, we are grown!                       
Life, at least mine, has been hard and cruel.                         
I see why so many are jailed and know why I'm alone.                        
My last chick, an air head, just wanted the bone!                     
Hangin' wit' my pride, I begin to remember you.                        
                        
We are older now, we are grown.                          
Life, at least mine, has been good and fine.                          
I am, taking care of myself, independent.                            
Happy and healthy, complete.                          
Cool, you didn't have to return my calls.                          
I'm sure, we will always be friends, no matter what.                          
                            
We are older now, I'm a grown ass man!                          
It's now, I understand my purpose.                          
Got a lot of things listed, that I "must do".                          
So, I prioritize my goals, save money, buy a place.                         
Wear rubbers, eat right and try to catch up to you.                          
Been askin' round town, but ain't nobody seen you.                        
I keep thinkin' about our personal jokes and my teeth shows.                          
Now when I look in the mirror, I like what I see.                        
You were soo smart, soo fine, soo sexy!                        
Never thought me good enough, just being me.                         
So, I am on the grind and time on my side, at least I hope so.                        
Because, we were friends a long time ago and I know I want more.                     
                           
I'm a grown ass woman, and friend a long, long, time ago.                         
You got some nerve after all this time, you still haven't matured!                   
Yes, we were friends, but that was a long, long, long time ago!                      
A lot of things have went down, I am sure.                          
Plus, look at me, I am not the same.                         
Please trust, you don't even know me.                         
Yes, we were friends, but that was a long, long, long time ago!                      
Let me not remind you, of all my many, many phone calls!                   
Did you actually think, it didn't hurt?                  
I "heard" when you hung up.                         
Look, no grudges and I am happy to see you.                      
We'll always be friends and                          
that my friend, just has to be enough!                        
                            
Friends forever and that "is" good, good enough, but                          
I got some things I want, no, need you to know.                         
You must know, that back then, I wasn't ready.                          
I had to experience things on my own, a personal journey.                         
I knew back then that you were different,                          
somethin' special, that I would never forget.                         
You know, I remember when you broke me down in class.                          
You flipped the table, so fast, everyone laughed!                         
I remember the days in typin' class,                     
made sure to sit next to you.                
Matter of fact, I know why you can't type!                
It's cos I distracted you.                          
Listen, we were friends and                     
you're right, it was a long, long, long time ago.                         
My past, is my constant flow.                
Tell me to leave, I may go, but                        
I'll be back the next day and the next!                     
Until they turn into lost tomorrows.                      
So say yes, please, say yes!!!                          
                            
You can come back tomorrow, the next day and the next,                         
but listen my life is not a movie, you can't put me on pause,                      
pick up the remote and decide to undo me!                          
You appear out of no where, I got my own business, a career!                       
We are friends, but you don't know me!                          
To know me, you'd have to start all over again.                          
Startin' all over again, really not the problem.                        
It's jus, you so caught up in mackin', you haven't noticed a thing.                         
Betta yet, you can get to know me,                    
but there's someone else, we are a package deal. A team.                      
Unfortunately, you not on my level.                            
I'm being real, you haven't noticed a lot of things.                         
My maturity for one, makes me complete!                         
                            
Listen girl, woman, my friend,                          
today all jokes a side, I am not laughin.                         
I want you more, than I want anyone or anything!                       
If you have a little one, then that's cool wit me, I am a MAN.                      
I jus know, right now in this moment, that as for me,                         
I am not complete!                                 
I'm sorry about our past and I acknowledge my wrongs.                      
I guess what I am sayin, is with your help, you can right me.                          
Tell me your kids name, maybe we can all meet...                        
Wait a minute, what is "that" on your hand...                        
are you?                            
               
Please tell me you are not married, tell me you are just engaged!                          
                            
Just engaged, just engaged, that's what you want to hear?                          
Well, I will tell you what you want to hear!                   
I am just engaged then.                     
Don't look so shocked, he is a great guy!                           
He don't got a lot, but he knows how to hold me!                           
In fact, I'll never forget the day he noticed me!                            
It was a rainy day, but a day, when my judgement wasn't cloudy!                            
I knew he was the one, just by the way it felt to have him near me.                       
Don't know that feelin?                
Then let me tell you, feels like heaven on earth.             
Feels like incredible heights, you                  
don't want to come down from!                            
Yep, been wearin his ring eva since.                          
No one else, will ever have the same hold on "this"!                            
So, just engaged, just engaged, if that's what you want to hear,                         
I will tell you, what you want to hear, I am just engaged then.                          
                 
Engaged?                
Wow, then I am regretfully too late.                            
What can I do?  What can I say?                            
My mind full of questions, but may I ask just one?                          
After all, we were best friends.                          
               
No doubt a long time ago!                          
               
But, aren't we still?                            
                            
Yes and "that" was your one question!                      
Your answer granted, we're still friends.                            
As for this ring, a symbol, of the eternity,                            
I would wait til you, my best friend and I, see things the same way.                          
                            
Now, we indeed do know,                        
what it looks like, when friendship, turns to love...              
                 
a collaboration.