not everything has a happy ending...

 -The boy who I first fell love with was the part of me. I thought it was justa crush, but all in rush I realized it wasn't. At nights, I continuously cried because I have dreams of him wishing it was in reality. Sad things is I wont be able to have him. There is a huge age difference. Falling for him was so UNEXPECTED. Felt like my heart was effected, constantly crying over him. I always lie to myself that I don't love you & that I don't miss you. I never want to kiss you. I never knew love was this painful. Love is very hurtful. Many times I've attempted to confess my feelings, I just seem to stumble over my words. Once you asked me if I liked you, I simply said like is not even the word. You had the nerve to ask me what is then. I said love. I tried to be sarcastic, but you ended up believing in my sarcasm. I repeated its the truth but you never believed me. It's hurts me very badly & quite angry. You was everything to me, now? You hurt me. Sad thing is? I still love you & I still miss you. - Mani Blue