The pills, The Liquor, The shadows, The Vision , These things in my addiction

The pills I take, just to get rid of the shakes
The liquor I swallow, keeps me willing to fallow
The shadows I see drift me into my dreams
The vision I have could be better
These things I write were never clever
In my addiction it's taking so much time
To realize that everything has shifted
But not yet to a greener side I have not yet been gifted
I haven't got the chance to be aware and move on
The only feeling left is this addictions real strong
So give me a reason just say something that's real
If I agree with you I might slow down and chill
If this doesn't happen soon just know that I'm doomed
Like a rose full of buds that never really bloomed..