Today

words fall like hammers on my heart
a swift blow and I'm knocked back
my fucking mind is blown apart
on a day when words attack


psychotic dreams kill me again
ripping my heart from my chest
a mirrors reflection of where I’I've been
and why I can get no rest


the mourning light strikes my eyes
rancid pain flows down my cheeks
the everflow of dying time
shows that I am miserably weak


today was not the day that I needed this
my wounds were bleeding when I awoke
unable to deal with any of it
I've chewed through my thread of hope


misery begets pain and pain flows to sorrow
as memories burn through my psyche
today is yesterdays tomorrow
and it all just festers inside of me