strong dark emotions

Tears and tears
“splash” they fall
From all of  these overwhelming feelings that I hold
Heart cracking slowly
Hurting me so deeply
I have no idea who I am anymore
Where am I supposed to go?
What am I supposed to know?
My sadness is like rain
It never ends, and if it does it ends in pain
How do I cope?
I have no hope
I tried to be happy and smile
But it was over in a while
I feel so helpless
So worthless
My way of coping is being emotionless
Pretending I feel nothing
When really I feel everything
When if I did let all my feelings come to me id overload
Crack into depression mode
Always feeling like a bomb about to explode
So angry and furious
Maybe I deserve this
I'm sorry for being emotionless, rude,sad and angry
But it still doesn’t stop all the pain and misery
I want all this to stop
I have had enough
I cant even laugh
Ive lost me and who I was
Because of this dramatic cause
Because of my sickness
I have lost my spark
I just cry in the dark.