ellipsis

On the verge of breaking down
fell to my knees
begging ...........
just begging for one last tomorow
before it all is taken from me 
for one more sunset beside your aura
bleek as outlooks get
searing rays of light burn
such delectable cherry intrusions
blurry collections of dew haze the window
holding surface tention untill touched
spills down without effort
caloused hands bleeding
the rope i hold dragging through them
knowing release would end it all
not wanting to give in
overcome the will to preserve self
antiquate this ellipsis as tears drop over the balcony
swaying in perverse winds
licking my every elation
tilling over soil long since spoiled and unwanted
fester and regurgitate this mess across the table
hands encircle the room
eyes peering beneath the cloth draiping over the sides
who really wants to bair wittness
forever and a day
its all i ask
all it would take to save me 
this undeniable outcry
for some sort of compassion
kicked in the teeth for my efforts
mouth bleeding
pail skin brused and split
hopeless and redundent
blood churning out of every crack and crevis
bent in a downward tilt
cyanide shading my view
falling backwards
two pieces of silk rubbed together will not produce anouther
just friction
equate this all to dumb luck and nothing more
an undiserable form
like poison arrows in my heart
creeping through
forcing my viens to struggle
to kill or be killed
enemy of my enemy is a friend at arms length
inside these walls of hatred
a fracture circumvents the whole of our surrounding surface
becoming divided
polar oppisites
pushing at each other holding a rope dragging through our hands