Lost belief

I'm between an athiest and a God Lover
Where do I go if I die during the summer?

I was brought to this world as his child they tell me 
If he is the sun while I was alive Why didn't he melt me?

There are two doors and both say enter
Next to me is an angel I guess they sent her

Half her face is burned and the other is just amazing
My eyes look from right to left I mean there going crazy

I turn to her and she smiles at  me
Then she fully turns and she yells at me

Her flaming eyes scream with her as she yells
I try to open my final door as it melts

I run in and fall and while I'm falling I see my childhood 
At moments there are butterflies and then burning faces

I'm scared,but yet I hold it in and await my landing
I fall and I stand up,my head I'm scratching

I look up and A bright light begins to burn my sight
Finally I wake up and I'm in so much fright

I guess living in this world believing in god is a must
 But what If I see him as the only person I can't trust