(try)

Sleepless nights        
Endless fights,
With no one but myself.
I walk with this fear of fainting,
And never waking up.
Of never growing up.
Has this been leading to a blow up?

Sleepless nights
Endless fights,
Covering the anger with trust.
That everything will mend again.
Just scared shitless of my thoughts within.

Brain disaster
Rampage master.
I keep control.
Pill after pill.
Blunt after blunt.
Happiness in a smoked damaged room.                    
Pissing away laughter in bloom.
Just understand that this,
Might be the first of a million times.
This may be the last of a hundred rhymes.