only so close but it was a beautiful accident

i sit here and wonder
are you even there?
do you even care
would you even bare
the things you said before
a smile to my face
sudden change of heart
now im lost in place
times that ive said this
but you threw me down
told me im dismissed
as i hit the ground
came only that close
you didnt resist
then you made me cold
as you play your tricks
the times you gave me chills
right up in my spine
the way you look right at me
then you changed your mind
all the signs you gave me
thought it was unreal
now you wont give the time of day
now my wounds wont heal
deep into your eyes
was just a waste of time
you were still in my head
regret every fucking thing i said
with me you had a throne
now id rather be alone
the shit i went through
didnt expect it from you
an accident so beautiful
became a broken obstacle
everything that was suppose to be true
all just became unglued
if you only knew
how much you had me fooled
everything over the years
became a river of tears
its more than what i found
a dream that came from the ground
to the water i watch it drown
why hit you while your down???
just lay there and hear me rant
a fucking beautiful accident