Mental Gymnastic Insanity!

I am mentally crazy,
I have ADHD and DID,
nobody could help me,
don't even bother
trying to be a counsellor,
there's no point it will
just make you a pessimist,
and unhappy to every degree,
I have no optimism about me
unfortunately,
my life is a paranoid disgrace,
I am scared about everything,
that I confront or face,
I always have negative thoughts
in my head that are consisted of
fear and dread,
even when I go to bed,
my thoughts are not dead,
they are existent and are
not consistent,
but are still very negatively
persistent.