you're not worth the piss in your guts

none of this is real
I'm not real
you're not real
Ggod's not real
this is all a glitch in the system
the system is the void
and the occurrence
life
is all just a glitch
it's undoing itself
because none of this was suppose to happen
it wasn't inevitable
it wasn't even probable
all these billions of years we think we're evolving
in something bigger
better
what?
no
they're all wrong
we're not evolving we're devolving
undoing the mistake of existence and consciousness
and everything here
not that time means anything to the void who is eternal
but it's taken all these billions of years
to rise up from nothingness
occur
and eventually go back to nothing
back to zero
that's what normal is
nothingness is the only real thing
and it doesn't exist either
because it can't
it's nothing
how can it?
so rise from that enormous burst
that strange light in the darkness
a fast and furious hot explosion into being
a chaos really
you can imagine her surprise I'm sure
then slows down to a mammoth crawl
gas and bits turn to planet
turn to minimal life
turns to bigger life
turns to understanding
consciousness
realization and revelation (or so we thought)
of self-awareness
turns to exploration
idea
religion
invention
technology
building up faster and faster
till the chaos again shows it's face
a fast paced race to the peak
and then
implosion
total reversal of the whole occurrence
so began is where we end up
we end where we started
nothing once again
total and pure silence
of mind body and spirit
of something that was just a glitch
not some miraculous happening
out of the dark
rising to become some great gods ourself
or so we hoped
no
we mean nothing
you mean nothing
you were a mistake
all of this is
lean back in your chair
let go
feel it pulling you back to it's dark catacomb
and just go
it's hard to face the reality
that everything you've ever thought about
or loved
or done
means nothing
but that's the only truth
nothing matters
(goodbye. I won't be seeing you again.)