Time To Take Control

I cant this pain any more my heart
doesn’t want to make the same mistakes
again by falling in love with someone
even when the love is there however
I am always afraid that I am always going to be step
on or walk all over as soon I open up my presheices
heart that is another why I keep myself and my heart
locked or closed up so I don’t get hurt again and try
to num the pain that always lays with me its something
that I try to control to the best of my ablities I should
always wear a mask to hide the emotions, the pain,
and the sorrow I feel everyday without thinking about
it  its just getting very hard to keep throwing all those
emotions away however they stay come back and smacks
me in the chest twice much more that I cant take it anymore
to make everything to seem to disappear even when its there
but being bottled up to be ready to exploded from my body