One Word

What do you think of
when you hear my name?
What is the first word
that pops into you mind?
For me it is worthless,
that is the first thing I think of.
I think of that first because it includes
all the other things that I know I am.
The fat useless slob,
repulsive and ugly.
That is what I am,
the girl no guy would date,
and all the other girls laugh at.
As for other people,
well they all call me worse things.
The umpa lumpa,
the blob,
or the ugly duckling.
All of it adds up to the same thing,
I am the girl who amounts to nothing.
The one girl who if she died tomorrow
no one would cry over.
That is the girl that I am.