Weaknesses

I can't tell you that I miss you
Right now is not the time
I can't tell you what I'm thinking
I'm afraid of being hurt but I cant lie

What if I was to tell you
How I feel about some things
Are you okay with me complaining
Or will that bring back too many bad memories

I almost need to ask you
If I can spill my heart to you
Because I'm unsure how you'll take it
If I just went and said the truth

The truth is I'm still hurting inside
Yes, I may cover it up most of the time
But it's always going to be there
And sometimes it becomes a bit too much to hide

I don't want to hide anything from you
But because of how you took it before
I resist the urge to let everything out
Inside behind the confidence - there still is some doubt

I'm afraid that you'll reject me
Because you can't handle all the sadness
You'll take everything the wrong way
When I just need some comfort to overcome the madness

I'm not mad at people
I'm mad at the badness they show
The weaknesses that took them there
Because their strengths could not be found

That's the sadness that I'm filled with
It hurts me to imagine what they felt
I wish there was some way I could help them
Because sometimes even I become weak
And my weaknesses seek someone's help