I'm Sorry

You pushed me over the edge this time
just when I thought everything was finally fine.
After all the threats
that ended up being promises
she's my world
my one and only weakness
and now you're taking that away from me
you decided to cross the threshold
between spite and complete hate
now everything unravels and unfolds.
All the bad things that I do
and I'm trying to be good.
Then you call them on me (cps)
I never thought you would.
The woman sat and laughed with me
she couldn't believe all the things you said
I told her everything you've done
and showed her all the horrible texts.
Then she asked me.....
do you have a drug problem?
I had to fucking lie
I wondered what would happen then.
She pulled out a strip
said "stick it on your tongue"
I thought that she was kidding
but she wasn't making fun.
Now I wait a week
to find out if I can keep her...
or if they'll give me just one chance
but why should they? what for?
The days will go by slow
my heart will sink when the phone rings
I'll break down every day
so sad, I won't feel a thing.
I imagine her holding that womans hand
being taken away from me..
just because I fucked up once again
I didn't think this is how it would be.
I just want to think
that everything will be okay...
I won't miss a day waking next to her
I won't have to miss a word she'll say.
Maybe I'll just get lucky
just this one fucking time
so until then the day comes
I'll be losing my mind.

Hopefully, I don't lose you.
I'm sorry Kaelen.
You're my world, my one true love.