Depression Returns

I floated away,
Farther each day.
Never thought that it would end up this way,
Once again.
Where do I even begin?
The depression,
Confessions,
Falling back in the darkest pit.
Remembering every hit.
The words that had been spit.
The anger somewhat dissolved,
What I thought was a problem solved,
Just came back to haunt me.
Why can't the monster hiding under my bed let me be?
He beckons and calls,
He stands out from them all.
He encourages the lonely and painful fall.
The life I left behind,
The people who I remember were once so kind,
Or so I thought.
The way behind my back they always fought.
Do I deserve the treatment I receive?
I have lost all reason to believe.