The Knavish Liar

Is it just plain confusion
Or am I really betwixt & between
Is it just my stupid head
Or is it really a bedlam in there...

Why am I getting used to the new steadfast gaze
When I already belong to a historical maze
Why am I thinking things I'm not supposed to
Oh! These thoughts so forbidden for me and you...

I know your arms will protect me forever
So then why does my body need something new?
I'm aware of your blatant disapproval in my actions
Yet I keep feeling that rush looking at my new distraction...

I keep telling myself-
   "Its just in my head
    It'll all vanish once you're in my bed"

   "I can't think like this!
    I can't be yours and be his..."

But who am I fooling?...

I'm just trying to hide this conspicuous attraction
The guilt's no less and hell yeah I'm scared for your reaction
I'm sorry if I can't stop this ineffable feeling
"Don't call me a cheater" Down on my knees I'm appealing...

The past years have made me a fighter
Then why do I feel weak today, please hold me tighter
Don't wanna mess it up for one sinful desire
No, I don't wanna be tagged "The Knavish Liar".........