Reality

Kiss me before you leave
Hold my hand even though I'll try to pull away
You don't understand
I'm a glutton for misery
Your love, it is the sweetest of all poisons
I take the needle and jam it into my veins to get a feel of it
For a second it feels real, feels perfect
For a second I feel alive
But once the high wears off I realize I am alone
Again
Sinking back into the reality of
College
Work
The simplest of projects make my stomach churn
Constant study and worry for without the correct grade I will lose the G-I bill
This is silly, I shouldn't worry
As long as I am smart enough, and the problem is, I'm not sure I am
So all I ask is for you to comfort me
Yes I have a life outside the bubble of my attachment to you
Yes I have friends who are great
So why aren't you here for me if they can be?
You make me want to rip apart my skin
Search inside for the reason I am never enough
Maybe my veins are tangled
Or something is lodged in my ribcage
Because I never seem to be important to you
Something inside of me feels missing, or broken
Why do you do this to me?
My faith is fading
I'm growing tired of waiting around
Maybe now it's your turn to pick up the needle
And feel the poison that was my love.