abused friendship

Youv got the point through I'm just a crap friend,
With nothing more to do than drive you round the bend,
I no longer understand why you treat me this way,
You might aswell just shoot me so it doesn't hurt so bad each day,
So much mental pain you manage to make me feel,
You throw out all these words like its no big deal,
The next day comes your feeling kinda bad,
But I know you don't care when your making me sad,
I can't even ignore you it just makes you worse,
So a friend I am just live under your curse,
Your meant to care be a friend looking out for me,
Not treat me like shit and hurt its just not how to be,
I can't no real friendship u hate that were far away,
But u moved 100 miles now feelings are hard to say,
The pain hurts me cuts me deep inside,
You even push me to thoughts I just wish I had died,
But I said it true your my first bestest friend,
And I mean It when I say I'm here for u till the end,....