4:30 In the Morning....

4:30 in the morning...
and I'm pondering....
As I embellish in the last
moments of my self medicated haze...

I momentarily contemplate what's
been happening to me these days

Shit... I feel like one of these
unclaimed strays... sulking around
my garbage can....

So  tired of trying to make sense
out of things I know.... I'll never understand

Cause see...
The soul of man
Is in High demand

As I see where I bought into the illusion
Trying to enjoy my slice of life's pie...
This is exactly what has caused  me this confusion
As I willingly scarfed down all the lies

Yeah... that first bite is what hooks you
through and through...
while I thought I was living
my soul was turning blue...

Lack of consciousness
Like Oxygen needed
Now... here I am outside myself...
Due to life lessons not heeded

As heavy tears fall from my eyes
Cause some how.... I feel
So mistreated

Now it's 5:45
As I watch the sunrise...

and I know...
despite it all
I will not be defeated

Even though I know I'm guilty
for believing the enemy's lies...

I know I'm still a soldier as I
look into the rearview mirror
at my eyes...

As I drive away...
a voice inside says...
"Fear not... for soon you will rise"

So while I'm at a stop light...
I just close my eyes....
I take a deep breath...

Because now I realize...
that I'm still powerful
even though right now I'm down
I must remember that I am STILL
a warrior... sneaking up on my foes
without a sound...

Even though my heart is aching
seems like no peace can be found
I ...am still a Warrior Queen
Fighting hard...
Even without a crown.