I Am Hate

I am fully aware of my capabilities
It would be much easier to believe in myself
if I wasn’t surrounded by darkness
Lies
All of their deception and denial suffocates me

Who said that telling someone how to live their life is productive?
Who told you that?
Your idea of “truth” is an excuse
to put others down and we can all see through your bullshit

Will you ever wake up?
Is this really who you are?
I’m done hoping you will change

It breaks my heart but I can’t go on pretending things are okay
I hope you know one day how your words have torn my soul into a million pieces

You always say I’m blaming others and maybe I do at times
but I know full well that my heart still suffers
from your brutal comments and criticisms

The fucked up part is that I still love you and I want to help you
but I can’t and I’m done trying

Whenever I try,
I end up giving too much and you take everything I have to offer
All my love, my compassion, my support
and you don’t give two fucks about me or anybody but yourself

You are too cold to feel and I can’t change that
I’ll save my soul and mourn the loss of something I never had