Thoughts on My Life

Sometimes I sit and wonder
If I have a reason to be here
All I can do is over-ponder
My purpose is not clear
I'm not good for much
I'm selfish and I hurt people
I constantly crave sexual touch
My body is an inevitable evil
I deserve nothing
But I still want everything
I want my dream of having a successful singing career
I want a love that's real and forever
I want all the fun and memories my life can hold
I want courage and confidence to be bold
I want beauty and strength and health when I am old
I want so much
But my work ethic is weak
I'm lazy and irresponsible
Do I really deserve happiness?