I Am Alone Today

Cool breeze flowing through the house
Finally a day without the rain
A glimpse of days to come
But here it only lasts a week or two

I wanna be on a lake
My favorite man in my hands
Mr. Daniels, you’re my only love
Always there for me
Never questioning

I wanna float in that perfect water
Hike a bit
Jump off a cliff
Stick my toes in the sand

But there’s chores to do
Finally alone
He has them for once
Dishes to do, laundry to fold
Floor to mop
Bedrooms to clean

Take my chance while I have it
Without any interruption
But maybe I’ll just sit here
And cry
Fighting not to make myself bleed
‘cause I’d rather hurt myself
Than someone else

But this pain in killing me
Tears are filling up
But they won’t come
No, not yet
Maybe some Rock’n’Roll will help
Keep them at bay
‘Cause this country stuff
Is gonna make me lose my mind
Wishing for something I can’t have