Untitled yet again.

'I hate you,
I hate you,
I swear to God I hate you...
Oh my god I love you'

From the day you swaggered into my life,
Full of self assurance
With a smirk and a snigger,
I've dreamed, nightmared about loving you,
Hating you.

You turn me into the thing I hate.
The thing that wants to push you into walls
By your throat,
Snarling at close quarters
Only to kiss you,
Beg for your forgiveness.
Tear your clothes off,
Humiliate you,
Only to adore you.
Shout at you,
Scream at you,
Only for you to scream back
Make me feel guilty.

Make me love you in the worst possible way.
Lock you up, throw away the key,
Be the most possessive I've ever been,
Not let you go to work,
Go and see friends,
Go out, ever.
I want you permanently under my supervision,
Under my command.
Just so you can dominate me.

I want you to rip me to shreds,
All over again,
So you can be my excuse
Yet again,
Be someone I blame,
For all of my misdemeanours,
Be the victim of my issues,
But the only one who can fix them.
I want you to worship the ground I walk on,
When I don't deserve to even be
Not when you're around.

I need your condescension,
To fuel this fire,
This hatred,
This...
Nothing.
Say some words,
Any words, you're bound to say them wrong,
So I can take proffered pity,
From whatever sap is my next target.

'I got my heart broken... I don't trust...
But it's not my fault... Feel sorry for me,
Try to fix me,
Pity me,
Fuck me,
But don't try and love me.'

'Use me, abuse me,
Destroy me and laugh,
I don't care.
You're not the one I want to do it'

I hate you for being you,
I hate me for hating that I love you,
I swear to God I hate her for loving you.
But oh my god,
It's only because I love you.