As Long as I Stay

I’ve seen the you that hides beneath the surface
The you that yearns for the eyes of pitying people
Does it make you feel good?
Have you fed your hunger?
In this question I am wrong as you reamain tied to my hip 

One day we’ll be a promise
Next day our friendship canniblised
I’ll never know what you’ll throw at me next
A curveball
A fake fall
A smooth kill
A fake bill
All the while I’ll have to pay the price of you
As long I stay 

You always have story to tell
No matter if you see that my face has fell
It’s all about you
All those retrid things you do
With every hungry look and your falling drool
We are your guilty pleasures
Your "gently" used treasures

You’ve kept me dangling from your string
Though I’ve opened the door that used to be shut
Your string now lay cut
Though the stain remains painted on my heart
You don’t get it do you?
Thats why as long as I stay I won't even have a clue

One day you’ll promise me
Next day a monster you will be
There’s no way I’m letting this go forever more
Your only holding me back when I could soar

To long I’ve let your putty slip through my fingers
The trouble that you’ve left leaves tension that still lingers
Will you carry on pretending to be someone your not
Will you sing my song and con your way to my singing tea pot
Well I say no this is my time to go

You can’t run over me
I’m not as easy as it seems
I’m not your Polly Pocket
You can’t change my clothes how you want it
So now that you’ve had your fun
Its time for me to make dues and run

Don’t come running back to me
For my god-sent mercy
I don’t care about your misery
I’m fine just where I am
I don’t need to be the blame
For why the mirror speaks of shame
Its not me who made those decisions for you
Though you stuck them to my back with your backstabbing glue

One day we’ll be a promise
Next day our friendship canniblised
I’ll never know what you’ll throw at me next
A curveball
A fake fall
A smooth kill
A fake bill
All the while I’ll have to pay the price of you
As long I stay 

All the pain is the price I'll pay
Only as long as I regretfully stay...