Once

Once you were my father
Though not by birth its true
Once when I was little
You were the man I looked up to

Despite how you hurt my family
Gambled our things away
Or how you dealt to my mother
If she got in your way

Once I'd vehemently defend you
Because you were my dad
Once I really loved you
Despite the control you had

Then one day out of nowhere
You took it all away
You decided I wasn't your daughter
How I hated that fateful day

It was when I lost the image
I had of you in my head
The moment you forced me to the ground
I felt like I was dead

In some ways that's what happened
My whole life suddenly died
I packed my bags and disappeared
And oh, how much you lied!

For some reason now you hate me
As if I was to blame
I haven't set eyes on you since then
But I've lived with the guilt and shame

Once you were my father
But not anymore...