I can or Can I

Can I really take a second chance
Will I allow him to lift the jar once more
Or will I just be that raisin cookie at the bottom all crumbled up
You demeaned me to unknown
You told me I wasn't worthy enough to lift my head
You told me I was only worth a blow
You stole my voice with a stroke
You know I actually wondered what it would be like to see you voiceless on the ground
I stayed up day in and day out plotting
But then I watched as you went in your room, only to get a goodnight's sleep
And I thought to myself he sleeps well, while I get consumed in my hatred for you
Growing paranoid
Growing sick
Going deranged
So I stopped, and I let you lift the cap
Only to tell you that….
I
   Forgive
                  You