Self Destruct

I Talk and talk but nobody hears
  Scream and shout, tell of my fears
  Display the scars that can't be seen
  Lose myself when I am mean
 
  Spill the pain with every word
  Beg and plead to be heard
  See the world that can't see me
  Lose the fight to be free
 
  Slip and fall, fail to find balance
  Loathe myself, deny my talents
  Think of life as a brutal fight
  Self destruct every night
 
  Pray my mind forgets to think
  Drown it out with another drink
  Befriend my rage and my hate
  Mould them into an iron gate
 
  Have high hopes for my next name
  Hide behind my bitter blame.